Beyonce held back nothing in her documentary, ‘Life Is But A Dream,’ released to the world via HBO’s network on February 16, 2013. The singer and songwriter shared her most private moments with fans as millions watched in awe of her transparency. Bey was especially frank when it came to motherhood telling viewers, “Being pregnant was very much like falling in love. You are so open, you are so overjoyed. There’s no words that can express having a baby growing inside. But you just want to tell everyone.” Check out highlights from the video below:
On her miscarriage:
Two years ago I was pregnant for the first time. I heard the heartbeat. Something happens when you hear the heartbeat. You truly know there’s life inside you. I picked out names. I envisioned what my child looked like. I was feeling very maternal. My family was so excited. I flew back out NY to get my checkup. And no heartbeat. Literally, the week before, I went to the doctor and everything was fine. But there was no heartbeat. I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’d ever written in my life and it was the first song I wrote for my album.
On feeling Blue kick for the first time:
I felt the baby kick for the first time. It kicked 5 times! I’ve been waiting for that moment. Hopefully it’ll do it again so Jay can feel it.
On keeping her pregnancy from the public:
There’s no words that can express having a baby growing inside of you. But you have to make sure everything is ok. So I had to hide the best thing in my life. I was scared to make plans, but I went to the doctor who said ‘Listen, you have to let it go. You’re healthy and if this baby is supposed to be here, the baby is going to be here. Go do everything you’ve been doing and everything will be fine.’
On giving birth:
I felt like God was giving me the chance to assist in a miracle. There’s something so relieving about life taking over you like that. You’re playing a part in a much bigger show. And that’s what life is….the greatest show on earth. My baby was born out of a conflict in my life. And that conflict had to be settled.
On praying for her daughter:
My grandmother used to light candles all the time in the church to pray for my mother. I am a result of my grandmother’s prayers. My grandmother prayed for me. My mother prays for me. God is real. And God lives inside of me. It doesn’t matter where I am. I feel it. Like right now, I’m hot. It’s inside of me.
Watch the full documentary below or HERE